So, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday came and went really fast - so fast that I didn't really have the opportunity to blog about what was noticed in my life on those days. Not that I didn't notice, but that I didn't have the chance to type it online. So, this will be slightly combined - I know that I am posting it on a Friday, but I don't have one for today just yet because I have only been up for a few hours and I haven't really been paying attention this morning...
So, on Tuesday I started to look for a job. I have always been really blessed in this area. Any time I have looked for a job I haven't felt overly discouraged because I hear back from prospective employers pretty quickly. I have noticed, over the last few months with our unsteady situation, that this is actually a very important thing. There are many people that put their resume out there and it just floats off into the never ending black hole of the internet. They rarely get responses to what they send, even if they are trying all the time. So, on Tuesday, I started to look for a job - and my Heavenly Father's hand was in the mix by having several prospective employers contact me back very quickly. This bolstered my confidence and helped me to not feel so uneasy about trying to enter back into the work force after so many years.
Then on Wednesday I had a job interview... another blessing. And though this is not my moment with Heavenly father, this is something that I feel I should share. To continue helping me to build my confience, my heavenly father had me interview with someone who served his mission in Jackson Mississippi/ Baton Rouge. It was 30 years ago that this man served his mission, but he recalled several of the people that I knew. I was so comfortable with this person. He even knew several of my music professors up at the U. So, we were able to talk and get to know each other fairly well. I was able to really feel comfortable with the interview process. Because this took a few days, I figured that it was good to put that my Heavenly father doesn't always do this right off - it's not always a strike of lightening, but sometimes it takes a few extra days to reveal what he wants for us to have. I am glad that I recognize that after looking back.
Wednesday was also my day that I got to go to the Bishop's Storehouse. What a blessing this is. This is truly where God touched me on Wednesday. After all, 30 lbs of apples is really a bit much. But, God know's what he's doing - right? In our struggles, we have had to humble ourselves and request for church assistance. We are to the point now where the church no longer needs to help with our bills, but they are still helping out with food when things get REALLY tight. Seeing the organization of the church in this manner - how it helps not only its members, but all people, is such an eye opener. This time I chose to go downtown to the Bishop Storehouse. I usually go to Kaysville, but this time I just happened to be Downtown. So, I went there. Yet, another blessing - the church is so organized that right in Welfare square there are Employment services, the DI, the storehouse, the cannery, and so many other things that are available to help those in need. I have always been humbled when I see how the church has such a perfect organization, but I am even more humbled when I see how it works for me and my family. Even when I haven't needed assistance, I have loved the D.I., and other things that the church provides. I was able to go to the employment services and have 2 job interviews while I was there - another thing that helped to bolster my confidence levels with this uneasy territory that I am embarking on.
Thursday was my fun day. It was Rick's day off of work and we had taken the girls (K and C) to Lagoon and to the movies. Now, there has been friction between me and the eldest, because I think that things should go a certain way, and she is just a kid and doesn't know which way things can go, and so there are many arguments that we have had. She is in town, and we are blessed to have her with us. But, it's hard to mend fences. Though we have pretty much gotten along since the first day that I saw her when I got back from Colordao, it's nice to build something more. I didn't want her to think that it was a "one time, aonika being nice" sort of thing. But I also know that to change someone's heart, there has to be a willingness and a spirit there. So, yesterday Rick went with Kennedy on a ride and I spent a little extra time with Circe. It was bonding moment, where we were able to laugh about "emo" boys, and stuff that she "would never tell my mom!". And I began to realize that it wouldn't have been possible if the conditions hadn't been just right. Mostly because it has been a very touchy situation. But, I have prayed and prayed for a very long time that there would be opportunities to build a better relationsihp with the oldest child, and it was very gently presented to me yesterday. A nice, informal setting, where a 14 year old could feel comfortable enough to be herself, and to mend things with me just a little bit more.
The Lord works in mysterious ways - and I am grateful that I glimpse some of those ways every now and then. I like to make things go my way, but I have noticed that if I just let him touch things a little bit and let them go His way, it seems go much smoother.
